okay

when i don't need everybody comes...

when i don't wantt to everybody comes..

but i don't want everybody i just want you...

but maybe you don't want me...!

and i'm sad..!! i'm really sad...!!

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i'm worried i like to see my own blood just let it flow...

i mess it up again.. but you don't give a crap.. you going to leave me anyaway..

you going to leave heart breaked...~thanks anyaway



[please don't leave me....]

those days!

Today is one of those days...
where nothing makes sence...
feel so little so insignificant...!!
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Very little

P!nk - Please Don't Leave Me

Da da da da, da da da da

Da da da, da da

Da da da, da da

I don't know if I can yell any louder

How many time I've kicked you outta here?

Or said something insulting?

Da da da, da da

I can be so mean when I wanna be

I am capable of really anything

I can cut you into pieces

But my heart is broken

Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me

Please don't leave me

I always say how I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please, don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?

What is it with you that makes me act like this?

I've never been this nasty

Da da da, da da

Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?

The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest

But baby I don't mean itI mean it, I promise

Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me

Oh please don't leave me

I always say how I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please, don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me

I cannot be without, you're my perfect little punching bag

And I need you, I'm sorry

Da da da, da da

Da da da da, da da da da

Da da da, da da

Please, please don't leave me(Da da da, da da)Baby please don't leave me

(Da da da, da da)

No, don't leave me

Please don't leave me no no no

You say I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back

It's gonna come right back to this

Please, don't leave me

Please don't leave me, oh no no no.

I always say how I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave me

Baby, please, please don't leave me

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no longer the same

Life is fragil...
Love is hard...
I'm not the same...
My head is heavy...
My chest is bleeding each day more and more...
I'm running out of options...
Maybe its better this way... i'm not supost to be happy...!!
i going to let it go!!

i want to be alone... there is no one who can understand... i can't do this anymore...
io can't.. i'm going to give up..!
please forgive me ... but i'm going to give up!
you left me alone... you left alone just like every one else...!
i can't do it anymore... i'm sorry i can't... i'm sick of suffering!


i'm sorry!!

silence 4 - angel song

This is me with another nervous breakdown

My pressure dropped, this body went with it

Memory fails, I'm feeling claustrophobic

I scream my silent pain in this big plain

There's no one here

Tell me who is there now

Who is there with you

I'm taking no calls unless it's her voice

I'm seeing no one unless it's herI open the mailbox every hour

Maybe I'll hit the postman

I want to hear some love words

But not in that dyslexic voice

No I won't tear apart for you

But I was given no choice

I guess I was trying to keep me alive

But once I was dead there's was nothing to do beside

Picking me up and lying me down

Waiting for some angel

To wake me and say to me:

"Hello. Don't be scared. I want you to know, you're not dead."

Kiss me, is this a dream?

Should I believe it?

Please promise to me that I'm not going to get hurt this time

Am I too good for you, am I just paranoid?

Should I get clinical or should I speak louder?

Maybe I should close my eyes for years

And wait for the strongest feeling

Out of all the feelings

To raise from youI guess

I was trying to keep me alive

But once I was dead there's was nothing to do beside

Picking me up and lying me down

Waiting for some angel

To wake me and say to me:"Hello. Don't be scared. I want you to know, you're not dead."

Kiss me, is this a dream?

Should I believe it?

Please promise to me that I'm not going to get hurt this time

Am I real? are you real? is this real?

What's real?Am I real? are you real? is this real?

Tell me, what's real?

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nothing else to say!

...

Morrer, só se morre só. O moribundo se isola numa redoma de vidro, ele e a sua agonia. Nada ajuda nem acompanha. (Rachel de Queiroz)


Se deixo errar meus pensamentos, não encontro ninguém. O melhor, afinal de contas é a morte. (Lou Andreas Salomé)

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maybe i should give up...
i think about it every day...
i can't...
:'(

Lamento... [hug me tight]

Lamento todos aqueles que tentaram chegar a mim e falharam...

lamento todas aquelas noites que passei a chorar e a castigar me por querer ser melhor...

lamento as vezes que precisaram de mim e eu nao fui suficiente...

lamento ter magoado quem magoei...

lamento nao conseguir ser aquilo que querem que eu seja...

lamento as pessoas que me abandonaram e que desistiram de mim..

lamento sentir este medo e esta agonia todos os dias ao acordar...

lamento ter o desejo continuo de querer desistir...

lamento nao conseguir viver mais ainda..

lamento sofrer tanto por tantas coisas...

lamento querer chorar cada vez mais...

lamento pensar que tudo e importante...

simplesmente Lamento...

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nao tenho mais tempo a perder...

nao sejas hipocrita... eu sei que podes confiar em mim... e quero que confies...

lembra te nao faças como os outros...

Não me Abandones...

[Hug me more... ]