no one

no one gets to see what i became!..
in a horrible, twist pearson, hiding in a useless corps...
without a purpese i wonder the empty streets of my heart, my so many times broken heart.., taken away every piece for those who tought that could handle it. they take everything thats good, but they don't stay to see the bad.. they all run away, living my soul, every time more nacked, and cold....
no one sticks around to see wht i am really, beside my so disastrous corp...
so i guess i am meant to be alone.. UAU... it's good to know, that no one really cares, not in that special caring way...
prettendig it's the hard's part...
maybe a decent goodbye would make everything harder mas easy, hard to say, but easy to forget..
oh god so weak i am... so powerless... so insignificant..

Perdida... desorientada...

Ando pelas ruas.. sem destino.. quase sem alma... arrancada por aqueles a quem eu dediquei tempo da minha inutil vida, por aqueles que eu tentei marcar, mas apenas eles me marcaram a mim... vagueio... pensando que preciso de pensar menos em coisas que nao fazem sentido, tento sempre arranjar uma justificaçao... mas a unica que me vem a cabeça, é que eu nao sou suficiente para ninguem... que nao mereço nada, pois por mais que faça so falho...
Entao o que me resta é vaguear pelas ruas finjindo que sou algo mais, mas ao mesmo tempo nao sendo nada...
Como é que cheguei aqui ???Para onde vou??? O que é suposto fazer?! O que sou eu realmente, para alem de um jardim estragado e seco para uma alma crua e fria..??
Insisto em fazer perguntas a uma mente em desvaneio, a um corpo vazio.
Invejo aqueles que têm quem os compreenda, ou mesmo aqueles que nao têm, mas nao sentem falta... pois sozinha todas as minhas revoltas se tornam ainda mais pesadas....
Desejo a todos os que me abandonaram, uma melhor vida, pois foi por isso que partiram... Lamento os momentos em que lhes falhei, e fico aqui neste canto escuro com o que me resta, ocupando o tempo com pensamentos evitando descobrir vezes e vezes sem conta a mesma justificaçao, o mesmo problema.!
Pois estarei sempre perdida... desonrientada....

okay

when i don't need everybody comes...

when i don't wantt to everybody comes..

but i don't want everybody i just want you...

but maybe you don't want me...!

and i'm sad..!! i'm really sad...!!

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i'm worried i like to see my own blood just let it flow...

i mess it up again.. but you don't give a crap.. you going to leave me anyaway..

you going to leave heart breaked...~thanks anyaway



[please don't leave me....]

those days!

Today is one of those days...
where nothing makes sence...
feel so little so insignificant...!!
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Very little

P!nk - Please Don't Leave Me

Da da da da, da da da da

Da da da, da da

Da da da, da da

I don't know if I can yell any louder

How many time I've kicked you outta here?

Or said something insulting?

Da da da, da da

I can be so mean when I wanna be

I am capable of really anything

I can cut you into pieces

But my heart is broken

Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me

Please don't leave me

I always say how I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please, don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?

What is it with you that makes me act like this?

I've never been this nasty

Da da da, da da

Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?

The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest

But baby I don't mean itI mean it, I promise

Da da da, da da

Please don't leave me

Oh please don't leave me

I always say how I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please, don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me

I cannot be without, you're my perfect little punching bag

And I need you, I'm sorry

Da da da, da da

Da da da da, da da da da

Da da da, da da

Please, please don't leave me(Da da da, da da)Baby please don't leave me

(Da da da, da da)

No, don't leave me

Please don't leave me no no no

You say I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back

It's gonna come right back to this

Please, don't leave me

Please don't leave me, oh no no no.

I always say how I don't need you

But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave me

Baby, please, please don't leave me

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no longer the same

Life is fragil...
Love is hard...
I'm not the same...
My head is heavy...
My chest is bleeding each day more and more...
I'm running out of options...
Maybe its better this way... i'm not supost to be happy...!!
i going to let it go!!

i want to be alone... there is no one who can understand... i can't do this anymore...
io can't.. i'm going to give up..!
please forgive me ... but i'm going to give up!
you left me alone... you left alone just like every one else...!
i can't do it anymore... i'm sorry i can't... i'm sick of suffering!


i'm sorry!!

silence 4 - angel song

This is me with another nervous breakdown

My pressure dropped, this body went with it

Memory fails, I'm feeling claustrophobic

I scream my silent pain in this big plain

There's no one here

Tell me who is there now

Who is there with you

I'm taking no calls unless it's her voice

I'm seeing no one unless it's herI open the mailbox every hour

Maybe I'll hit the postman

I want to hear some love words

But not in that dyslexic voice

No I won't tear apart for you

But I was given no choice

I guess I was trying to keep me alive

But once I was dead there's was nothing to do beside

Picking me up and lying me down

Waiting for some angel

To wake me and say to me:

"Hello. Don't be scared. I want you to know, you're not dead."

Kiss me, is this a dream?

Should I believe it?

Please promise to me that I'm not going to get hurt this time

Am I too good for you, am I just paranoid?

Should I get clinical or should I speak louder?

Maybe I should close my eyes for years

And wait for the strongest feeling

Out of all the feelings

To raise from youI guess

I was trying to keep me alive

But once I was dead there's was nothing to do beside

Picking me up and lying me down

Waiting for some angel

To wake me and say to me:"Hello. Don't be scared. I want you to know, you're not dead."

Kiss me, is this a dream?

Should I believe it?

Please promise to me that I'm not going to get hurt this time

Am I real? are you real? is this real?

What's real?Am I real? are you real? is this real?

Tell me, what's real?

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nothing else to say!