Why does this keeps happening to me…

I keep thinking that I just don´t deserve anything good!

I feel like shit! I keep screwing it up… I should put an end to this! i sick of pretending that everything is okay, everybody is looking at me like I’m some kind of monster! Maybe I’m…

Maybe I do deserve to be left alone!

I´m no good…. Nobody wants a broken one… no matter what I do, I can´t keep up, they keep putting me down! Shit, dawn!! The words keep getting out of my dark and twisted mind, i need some action… why don´t I cut my self this time for good?? Why don´t I just get it over with… get it done… stop saying and writing this foolish stuff and…JUST END IT!!

The answer is because I’m weak… I’m always hiding, under this shell!!!

No one will ever know the true me, no one can know, even I am not shore of who I am! Even better: no one wants to know the real me! I´m doomed, to hide the rest of my self!

Don´t know why I keep doing this… sometimes I just want to give up!

And probably this letter or whatever this as became won’t change a thing, probably no one will notice that I wrote it… that’s because maybe no one cares! But whatever, I’m learning ….

Learning how to gain control!!!

The problem is I doesn´t matter anymore… the only thing we have left is Death, nothing else! :/

nothing makes sence

I...

felt a lot of diferent ways...

but never like this...

impotent, useless..stupid!

completely empty!

i can't even express myself...

i mean, it isn't suppost to hurt this bad...it shouldn't hurt!

i find my self, thinking..about death..

if i knew that all the suffering would go away...

if i just knew!!!

everything around me..it's getting black, like frozen.. so afraid of being alone!

but in the end it's just!

nothing makes sence and i feel like i'm losing it!

earing things, and stuff!
death seems the only solution!

!!.......i don't want to be alone!

feels like no one cares!!

no one have time for...just listen!

need a way out!

i'm stuck here!!!!

need to get out