Why does this keeps happening to me…

I keep thinking that I just don´t deserve anything good!

I feel like shit! I keep screwing it up… I should put an end to this! i sick of pretending that everything is okay, everybody is looking at me like I’m some kind of monster! Maybe I’m…

Maybe I do deserve to be left alone!

I´m no good…. Nobody wants a broken one… no matter what I do, I can´t keep up, they keep putting me down! Shit, dawn!! The words keep getting out of my dark and twisted mind, i need some action… why don´t I cut my self this time for good?? Why don´t I just get it over with… get it done… stop saying and writing this foolish stuff and…JUST END IT!!

The answer is because I’m weak… I’m always hiding, under this shell!!!

No one will ever know the true me, no one can know, even I am not shore of who I am! Even better: no one wants to know the real me! I´m doomed, to hide the rest of my self!

Don´t know why I keep doing this… sometimes I just want to give up!

And probably this letter or whatever this as became won’t change a thing, probably no one will notice that I wrote it… that’s because maybe no one cares! But whatever, I’m learning ….

Learning how to gain control!!!

The problem is I doesn´t matter anymore… the only thing we have left is Death, nothing else! :/