segunda-feira, 19 de janeiro de 2009

emptyness (pain in the chest) -saudade-


Every footstep you give, every time your picture appears, every time i look at your very distant eyes, my heart dyes a little bit more. It’s just another stab with a knife that i take...
Horrible! i can even think any more... it hurts... but it’s my entire fault, i’m too unbearable, too agonises, too weird.. in the end too weak!
i will never forget, that night when you left, at the front of my house... all alone, crying my heart out... the tears runing through my face, i never felt so insignificant, so little in this big scary, and dark world!! i will never forget it...
Now you made your choice... i’m not coming back... no matter what, you hurt me deep... really bad... my heart is always bleeding...no way i can stop this mess...!!
All i have left are our good and sometimes painful memories... you and me in the rain.. you and me walking like there was no tomorrow!! It’s all i have left!!

this and the feeling of emptyness.. like it's not worth it to keep going... no more figthing (for what??) whats the point you are all going to die!!


hold on... don't ever let go...